Submitting the Formal Application

April 26, 2016- So we finally finished the formal applications and double checked it. We also had to provide some additional papers to support the application. So pretty much we well really I was stressed when I pressed the submit button. I thought I would be able to do as Disney has taught us and Let It Go but no I couldn't.

One thing you hear a lot of when you are struggling with fertility issues is you should "just stop thinking about it and it will happen". Well let me tell you something that is the worst advice to ever give someone. Why you may ask? Because every time you walk down the street and see a baby carriage, a pregnant woman, or a toddler with their parents you are reminded that you are on this path. This long lonely path of fertility where everyone judges you, thinks they have the answers, and no one wants to listen to you. When you find yourself standing in a county fair ground parking lot shoving a needle into your stomach hoping this cycle works "just don't think about it" doesn't work.

So when you move to the next step to start your family you already know not thinking about it isn't going to work. You wake up and wonder if there would be a message in the email telling you that you didn't get accepted. Or will there be a message saying they need more paperwork.

The day before we submitted my cousin called to tell me her father had passed away. So I was able to focus on her for a bit but it always sat in the back of my head. The following week my computer at work decided to not work for the week and I sat there with no computer wondering if I had any messages. Well that and if I could survive with out spell check. Then the time came when I figured I would hear something and still no messages. The one thing I am learning is the little control I had doing fertility is way more then I have with adoption!

Then finally while I was in Indiana celebrating one of my cousins marriage the message finally came! Time for the next step, more paperwork, and time to prepare to tell our extended family and loving friends!